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Monday, November 24th, 2008
5:47 am
i just want to share something that happened to me today.

i was job hunting and got chinese food right before i had to head to work.
i got a fortune cookie (i kind of love them) and cracked it open upon finishing.
it said 'you are heading in the right direction'
this made me happy....optimistic even.
15 minutes later i had food poisoning and had to call in that i was going to be late for work.
the only thing i could think of all evening was that i paid $9 to make myself sick.

i WISH this was a lie.

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Thursday, October 2nd, 2008
11:17 pm
so i'm wondering why the hell it's allowed to be 7 degrees outside right now. SERIOUSLY. it's effing FREEZING! 2 days ago i was in a t-shirt today it's fall coat, scarf, gloves and hat. seriously?? it makes me feel like i should go to my mom's and collect my winter coat asap.

i have had a pretty boring day off to be honest. it was a little productive...i cleaned the floors and got some groceries (and a much needed can opener). the thing is i'm starting to get that isolated feeling again. that feeling you get when you constantly work and when you have days off you don't know what to do because all your friends are working and you never seem to get the same day off as them. hopefully i'll be able to deal with this feeling better than i did before it made me so crazy i took off outta the country. we'll try not to let that happen again...

i DID go see my friend meg tonight though. she goes to ryerson for theatre and her class put on a scene study so i went and it was very well acted. she is so young i keep forgetting she is a 3rd year. i had to leave during intermission because i was seriously tired and just wanted a warm cup of tea (the room was also AIR CONDITIONED ughghghghghhh) before bed, but i saw her scene and her costume was phenomenal.

i am kinda scared about this 2 jobs thing but hopefully it all works out okay. this week will be the tester. i am really worried however about having to remember to schedule time off at BOTH jobs. i need to schedule off working late on Halloween and book Nov 1st completely off. gotta remember.

i'm sure everything will work itself out.

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Wednesday, October 1st, 2008
12:23 am - even if i end up going into debt........
at least i'm going to angie's wedding in belfast on dec 29th and spending new year's in dublin.

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Saturday, August 30th, 2008
9:24 pm
i really really reaaaaaaaaally want to watch 'the notebook' right now. but i don't own it, which sucks. and it would probably take forever to download.

anyone seen the movie '100 girls'? go to youtube....and search '100 girls speech' .....i am still feeling sappish though i watch this clip 2 nights ago. seriously.

*sigh* i'm going to watch 'house'.

current mood: emo

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Thursday, July 24th, 2008
1:00 pm - decision made
i'm deferring my acceptance. this is way too much pressure that probably wouldn't be worth all the hassle.

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Saturday, July 12th, 2008
4:13 pm
i have a secret crush. no i'm not going to say who it is. but it's nice.

i have come to realize over the past couple of years that most of the time, love is totally awkward and usually unattainable until you find the right person which always takes way too long, so i have wholeheartedly stopped trying.....and it feels AWESOME! not taking crushes seriously is the best decision i ever made. i can have fun and not feel like whoaaa but if this happens there is the whole commitment thing. cuz really...i know i'm not staying...so no danger of that.

but yes. he is hot. and nice. and totally unattainable (at least in the long term).
2 more months of the butterflies.

ps. i have lost my guitar callouses so i am getting them back. painfulllllllllllll. but it's the good kind of pain...

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Saturday, June 28th, 2008
4:22 am
am i the only canadian that hasn't inherited an EU passport? because it really feels like it.

current mood: annoyed

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Monday, May 26th, 2008
4:36 pm - oh allergist....i hate you
things i am allergic to:

- dust mites (severe)
- trees
- grass
- ragweed (basically everything that blooms in nice weather)
- cats
and finally.....................dogs

everything would have been fine...if not for that dog allergy. =[

current mood: discontent

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Friday, May 23rd, 2008
5:38 pm - last night
was fantastic haha. and moreso, some parts were unbelievable.

i <3 friends.

i do not want to work today. all i remember is 4 pitchers between me, courtney and meg, and 1 massive mug purchased for me by chris. and meg losing her cell somewhere. and the vomit comet. and domers.

you know it's been a good one when even after ALL that you are still not falling over drunk, and you are in fact conscious enough to stalk your waaaaaay more drunken dutch friend to make sure he gets home without a) passing out on the ground or b) killing himself. yup, i truly am a great friend. also, martin is a great friend for helping me stalk said dutch boy all the way up into the north york hood...as i would have got really fuckin lost if i had to do it myself. oh chris, canada won't forget you.

i should prob start getting ready for work. ughhhh i would rather just stay in beeeedddddddddd.....

current mood: hungover

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Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
6:21 pm - drastically overworked, cheap employers (underpaid), no social life outside work
every person in toronto has this problem...or at least all of my friends.
and honestly, i'm not into it.
i'm not into working until i die and not seeing my friends.
i want to feel happy and not on the clock and under pressure every day of my life.
i can have the job i want in a lower pressure part of the world/environment.
i will not have a heart attack by the time i'm 30.
my first chance to get the hell outta here, i am taking it. definitely.

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Thursday, April 24th, 2008
1:45 am - Let others know a little more about yourself, repost this with your name followed by "ology".


Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
the used

Q. How many televisions do you have in your house?


Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
wisdom teeth

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
puppy =]

Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
yes! fell off a horse and rolled down a hill at camp when i was like 11, knocked me right out when i got to the bottom. my bitch counsellor made me walk the horse back to the barn when i woke up.


Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
probably not. it would kinda freak me out.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
i've always loved the name sarah.

Q. What colour do you think looks best on you?
pretty well all dark colours. i'm a winter. i wear a lot of dark blue, red, green and black.

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
hmm don't think so.


Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
haha no waaaay

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000
that might be really hard!

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
fuck yeah lol i wouldn't be happy about it but the cash would numb the pain

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1,000?
not with my stomach.

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
hells no.

Q: What is in your left pocket?

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good film?

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
hardwood and rugs. and tile in the kitchen.

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
who sits in the shower? isn't that a bath?

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
i have sandals but not flip flops. they hurt my feet.


Q: Last person who texted you?
chris l.

Q: Last person who called you?
tim r.

Q: Person you hugged?
tim r.


Q: Number?

Q: Season?

Q: Colour?
blood red. and increasingly....green.


Q: Missing someone?
sooooooooooo many peeeeeeeeeeeople =[

Q: Mood?
overly contemplative.

Q: Listening to?

Q: Watching?
stupid kids tv.

Q: Worrying about?
the next 6 months.

Q: Wearing?
jeans, t-shirt, the norm.


Q: First place you went this morning?
a job interview.

Q: What can you not wait to do?
know where i am going to be this fall.

Q: Do you smile often?
smiling makes me happy. yep yep.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
that i am!

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Wednesday, April 16th, 2008
2:47 pm - it's a sunglasses daaaaaay
aaaaand it's haircut day yaaaaaay! i shall feel human by this evening.

i plan on walking outside a lot today. preferably all along queen st. west. it will be one of my last days of freedom before i start working again so i plan to make the most of it. also it's my last day on the antibiotic so i am feeling a lot better...just a lil tired still. i have decided i need a female friend who likes walking along queen st and shopping. claire is gone to bc and it seems everyone else lives faaaaaaaaaaaar, has moved away completely, or is working all the time. i'd try heidi but she comes under the working all the time umbrella. maybe when jess moves back soon we can go on weekends when she is not working.

got an interview at the hard rock on friday to get my old job back. it pays me money and i never hated it. the people always made it really fun and i need a social life now that i'm back, so i think this is the best thing for right now. plus there are no jobs available in agencies that would actually pay me money..so unfortunately i need to be practical. plus hrc has a medical and dental plan. just like a real job! haha just gotta get used to standing for 8 hours again. i'm pissed i threw out my old work shoes at one point when i came back for a visit. they still fit and it's just cuz my mom was bugging me to throw out some stuff in the closet that i even got rid of them. grrrr. now i have to buy new ones...and i liked those. i need to buy work pants too. i think i can wear jeans...have to check again.

they are turning off the water in the building today because some pipe sprung a leak. at least i know when water goes off here it is only for 1 day and will DEF be fixed...probably before the end of the day.

gotta eat now and take my last dose of antibiotic.

current mood: okay

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Tuesday, March 18th, 2008
4:41 pm - attention canadians
i will be home in TO on march 31st.

please prove to me that home is not so bad and distract me from the inevitable depression that will be consuming me due to not being able to be in dublin anymore.

current mood: depressed

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Sunday, February 24th, 2008
1:31 am - coulda knocked off the evening...
i am currently sitting in the sitting room, content, on the laptop...just finished watching 'sideways' with phil and john. chilling, conversing, being very not tired. this will be gone next friday.....and i will miss it.

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Saturday, February 9th, 2008
11:27 am - i'll take a double of what you just said...
http://www.myspace.com/andreawassemusic 'straight to my head'
http://www.myspace.com/fionnregan 'put a penny in the slot'

i am having the best, most relaxing morning ever, thanks to these two brilliant singers.

you should listen too. get stuck in.

i feel like i'm 10 again haha. today i am going to the belfast zoo with phil. lions and tigers and bears oh my! it is sunny and there is a brilliant blue sky out...spring is nearly here. whoopeeeee!! =]

current mood: chipper

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Thursday, January 10th, 2008
9:16 pm
gee it's fun having to go home in less than 2 months and not having the SLIGHTEST clue what i am going to do once i get there.

ohhhh superrrrrr funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

i have been thinking about doing some work at travel cuts with the swap program. would definitely be fun working in travel for a bit...and it's totally good in terms of a temporary job. plus i know about the program in other countries as i've been on it...and i could do orientation sessions for the work in canada program no problem as...well...i lived in toronto for 21 years. so basically...that's a possibility. i don't want to work in music right away in case the school thing pans out...wouldn't want to leave a good job in music. i'd have no trouble leaving a job in travel though.

and now....back to my marathon of grey's anatomy and life contemplation

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Saturday, January 5th, 2008
7:00 pm - sometimes it snows in belfast
like maybe once every few years. and by snow i mean SNOW. not shit that melts in the span of a couple hours.

well...imagine my surprise when i was on the bus from dublin to belfast and well....i thought maybe it snowed a little cuz there was some on the ground and the trees. NO NO. omg....never come back to belfast when it snows. you will NEVER get a cab! aaaaand they have no removal equipment so i dragged my bag along the sidewalk and it got all covered in slush cuz it wasn't removed.

this is AFTER...

- being on a plane for over 6 hours either beside or in close proximity to someone who was CONSTANTLY farting (i wanted to die)
- being (of course) flirted with by security at the paris airport and the dude pretty well made me talk to him in french because my passport was canadian (at friggin 6am!)....it was funny haha i spoke the shittiest ever
- being on a 3 hour bus ride from dublin to belfast surrounded by an english family who...upon seeing the semi-light snow their children started asking 'daddy...are we going to be able to get home?' ...i wanted to slap them

now...the funniest part was seeing cars abandoned on the side of the road. seriously. HAHAHAAHA!! i mean..it was a lot of snow for belfast...but NOTHING really.

time to head to the black box to see foy vance and laugh at all the people who don't have clothes for actual freezing temperatures/are falling in the street. wooo!

ps. mira i love your xmas card. =]

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Saturday, December 29th, 2007
7:30 pm - the dangers of coming home
last night kicked ass! ben got a job at medieval times as a squire and me, oscar, olga, and tim went to see his show last night. amazing!!! we then went drinking with a couple of the other squires. it was good times all around. i...as per usual...had too much white wine...by the end of the night i could't properly tell the time on my watch. ben told me to get a digital one and i hit him with my mitten. =p

nostalgia journeys like medieval times are NO GOOD for miriam! it kicked so much ass...mad me wanna ride all the horsies. oscar and i spent the whole night screaming "GREEN SQUIRES SUCK!!' as ben was a green squire....and we were in the red section HAHAAHAA..... also ben told the red knight to give the 'token' (banner thing) to his girlfriend olga and said she had purple hair and gave him the table number....well....the knight kinda screwed up...i guess it was dark and he couldn't see hair colour....cuz well.....he gave it to me. =] i was like ooooohhhhh fuck i hope she doesn't know! ....but it was awesome! he made me his Queen of Love and Beauty. teeheeeee! =]

omg...all i wanna do....is ride....and jump courses....now now now!!

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Sunday, December 9th, 2007
10:44 pm
i always post in this thing when i am angry or feeling helpless and i think you should know i am still happy sometimes lol.

going home for the holidays 2 fridays from now. FUCK. that is weird...

this weekend has been spent drafting spreadsheets, updating my database, and hanging about in various markets around belfast lol. so productive yet....still fun.

i am about to start planning spring tours for my acts. i'm going to book them and it's going to work. why? because i'm doing it now...before the holidays. yesssssssssss. hopefully by the spring i'll feel at least a bit successful.

hmm i want some juice.....then bed. mmmmbed.....

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Thursday, November 1st, 2007
10:31 am
i'm gonna clock her. definitely.

current mood: enraged

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